Alone

 I’m starting to realize more and more that I have no friends.  At least, none that are near me (save but maybe 2, but they are also busy with their own lives)….just those who I have met through OD or through other online routes, and they all live all over the country and nowhere near me.  It’s painfully unfair.  I guess what I’m saying is, I don’t have any go-to people.  Most people have those couple of people, at the very least, who are always around; even when there’s no one else available.  They’re just part of that group or pair and are always invited/included to things, automatically.  I don’t have that.  When I’m interested in doing something, everyone else already has or has plans to with their go-to people, or they just aren’t interested.  So, I just have to go do those things alone.  I’d never had experience doing most things alone before this year, but it looks like it’s something I’m going to have to really start getting used to without complaint.  I feel like maybe I’ve evolved a bit, at least, because in the past, I never could’ve imagined doing things like going to the movies or to shows by myself, but now I do those things.  I guess that’s an accomplishment in a way, right?