Confused. Pleasantly.

     I’m confused, but pleasantly confused.  Went over to his place tonight to catch the game.  I think I looked really pretty in a cute top with a low cut lace blouse underneath.  Well he kept touching me in really subtle ways that made my body tingle.  It felt really nice.  I tried really hard to not just throw him up against some random piece of furniture and do something naughty, but I resisted and flirtatiously told him that we couldn’t do things like that if we were just friends.  He kind of laughed it off.

     By the end of the game we were on the same couch close to each other and he pointed out my flip flop tan lines and grazed my foot lightly with his fingers.  I couldn’t control myself anymore and I just looked at him and spilled out with, "I really wanna cuddle with you right now" to which he responded, "I really wanna cuddle with you too".  I playfully suggested just cuddling "as friends" and he contemplated it and said, "not yet".  Not yet?  Does that mean soon?  Potentially in the future it might be okay to touch each other?  Leave it to me to over analyze one small sentence, but it’s the best sentence in the whole wide world to think about.  I know I shouldn’t keep all my hopes pinned to "not yet", but I can’t help feeling so elated. 

    Well, I have no clue when we’ll get to hang out again.  I’ve run out of excuses and I know he’s concentrating hard on work and I’m busy with school.  Geeze, I need some sleep.