The Hits Just Keep Comin’

    I feel like an idiot.  I text when right before class this afternoon to see if I could just have a brief moment to talk to him.  He said yes that it wasn’t a problem and that he’d be getting back from happy hour with his co-workers early since he was kind of out of it. 

   After class I sat down on my bed for a good hour trying to write a short letter about how I was okay with ending our relationship, but I didn’t want to lose our friendship.  That was around 4:00.  He went to happy hour at 6 and around 8 he text me to tell me that he was going to be out until late.  Big surprise.  He asked to postpone the talk until tomorrow.  Another "big surprise".  Honestly it crushed me because my stomach was in knots the whole time trying to prepare what I would say to him face to face.  I didn’t even get the chance because half way through our texting he just quit responding.  I tried calling him to see if something was up on one of our phones, and he never picked up.  The phone rang and rang, and so he was basically just ignoring me and "putting me in my place".  It hurt.  I don’t understand why I deserved that kind of rejection again after he tore my heart out last night.  I’m assuming that IF, and that’s a very big if, he ever gets around to calling me (doubtful) he’ll say it was because his phone died.  I’d actually bet my life on it.  Even if it was true, he could have borrowed anyone else’s phone to send me a brief message saying so, but that would require him actually caring about me in the first place, right? Right.

   So, it’s midnight and nothing.  No phone call, no nothin.  He spent an 8 hour work day with these people, and he’s been out with them since 6.  That equals a total of 14 hours, and why they all want to be together that long…I have no freakin clue.  So now it’s off to bed after an extremely nerve wracking day, and nothing to show for it.  This guy is so not worth it.