well, this is curious…

It’s funny, but i guess not surprising that i came back to this diary. its funny because the last time I felt like writing here the site had been shut down and there was only a notice saying opendiary is done. Another funny thing is that when I looked back at my older entries it seems like I come back every 7 years and actually feel compelled to write something. It’s logical that at each time it seems I’m in a totally different place in my life and interesting to go back and read the words of who I was 7/14 years ago. Finally its not so surprising since everyone is now stuck at home and we are trying to find some meaningful thing to do while going slowly toward madness.

Well this time around I’ve made some serious changes in my life and am now a semi-grownup which is good and bad. Good because Adulting is a major requirement for being able to live out in the real world. It only took me 30 years to get here, so i guess i’m a bit later to the game than your average person… overall though i’m happy, i have a job that i like and a skill set that allows me to venture out into the world and do tons of cool things. i work as a systems engineer for an international company and i do a multitude of things, mainly database management and software/hardware quality assurance. A somewhat fortunate thing is that i get to work from home during this time when so many people can’t and i really hope that this is over soon so that people can go back to their jobs and make a living.

well I don’t have much else to say at the moment, but that i felt like stepping away from facebook and all the other social apps to come here for a bit. To just write, for myself, though i suppose this is also a social thing and that people can actually read these because i don’t have my settings on private, but from what i remember its not that social and i’d rather think that people are able to read this (that my brilliance isn’t just wasted on me lol) even if no one does. so, i guess thats what i really wanted, to step away from checking facebook and all the other soul-drainers every 5 minutes and just sit with myself and with the silence of this house. As it stands today I’m happy, I’m ready for the next 7 years and all of the horror and mischief that we will bring to this planet. it is going to be interesting to see what we will do to bring ourselves ever closer to extinction.

oh i feel the 17 year-old me coming back. i guess i better stop before all the nihilism comes rushing back.

hope you are well, where ever and who ever you are.

be kind rewind… and all other farewell things that people say

i’m going to read this in 7 years and think i had gone absolutely insane (looking forward to that) [hope i come back before then]

–SHAH