got nothing figured out
I’m going to be 25 years old soon (in about a month) and, I must say; for where I am in life, I’m a little worried. I have a bachelor’s degree in philosophy which does not get me anywhere and a failed attempt at law school which diminishes my chances of getting into other grad degree programs. I never had a real job because my parents always told me that my education comes first and I never contested because: what kid wants to go to work if everything is provided for him or her… I was pampered to the max… and I had no idea that once I got dismissed from law school I would feel so empty. I feel like I’ve had no real world experience. No bosses, no co-workers, nothing. My friends are my college friends and since I moved away and hated my law school classmates, all I have are scattered friends from 2 years ago who have all moved and/or are doing something else with their life. I feel left behind, it’s really hard to not have a track, to not know what the next step will be. I always had plans for a year ahead in my life, but since the breakup of my engagement and the dismissal from law school (in the same month) I’ve spent 6 months just trying to recover and get back to sanity. I’m ready to move forward, but I’ve hit the major road block of my inability to relate to people my age. I’m still not comfortable thinking about what a job setting will be like. I know this will sound arbitrary to many people who just had to start working at 18, call it a first world (privileged persons) problem, but I have no clue how to deal with people. I know that I’m just scared and that if other people can do it then surely a philosophy grad can too, but it is still a mental block. All I know for sure right now is that there is no more time to sit around and waste, I need to get up and do something. I just wish I knew what and how.