Nothing is clear

I never get to talk and I never know to shut-up. I never get to say what I really want to say. For a while I use to be able to just keep it all in my head and those were happy times those were the times when I could just laugh at people and never have to tell them that they sound stupid. This did not bug me in fact I gave them the right to be stupid, after all it’s so much easier to live if you can’t see. People tend to see clear pictures and as for me all I see is inkblots. Nothing is clear, if you think about it, nothing IS clear. Anyways it is making me unhappy, starting to think I should start on my old method of “not talking” again. I will speak only when spoken to and nothing more. This could be the only thing that will help me. life is as it should be and humans are everywhere.