03/26/2011

Well, to be honest….I’ve been wanting to write in here lately. However, I can’t think of anything to say. My stomach has been off today. I really don’t feel well. I have cold chills too. I’ve been feeling as if I want to pick up the phone and call someone and talk for hours on end about nothing at all. Just so that I don’t feel lonely anymore. And that’s what has been on my mind lately. I can’t sleep at night. I know. I shouldn’t be complaining. I’m sick of this. I should be happy and glowing and everything else. But, you know…I can’t help but be honest. I need to get these feelings out. I spend my time checking my cell phone for texts/missed calls (it’s on silent because I’m not allowed to have it at work and I always forget to turn the sound off before I come to work). But usually I come up empty handed. NO! You know what? It’s not all about me. I’m sick of feeling this way! This has to stop and this has to stop now! I refuse to live like this anymore. Seriously. NO MORE! Today I honestly wanted to spend the day in bed. I don’t see anything wrong with doing that once in and while but I don’t do it. I can’t do that because then other people would assume (whether it’s true or not) that I am depressed and whatnot. I have responsibilities I have to tend to as well.

So yeah….I have to really have to get my act together. I am purposing to make my life better from this moment forward. I have had enough…