Baby Steps….

I’m kind of embarrassed. Ashley found my Facebook page. On it, I talked about suffering from social phobia. And I wrote some comment that said something like, "I lead a very boring life. My co-workers tell me I’m boring….But you know something? I DON’T CARE WHAT THEY THINK!" And Ellen was on there and she commented on that statement. LOL! Oh well. It’s not the worst thing that could happen I guess. But the fact that I suffer from social anxiety is none of their business. It’s okay though…

So, starting yesterday, I am feeling a lot better. Which is great when it all boils down to it. I am talking to Greg now. And, he seems to understand me. Which is nice. I am really trying to make an effort to beat this social phobia. To stay positive and not allow tiny things to tear me down like they used to. I really need to grow up and stop acting so immature. Also, to get more in touch with my feelings. I’m recovering. It’s a long, slow process but I am making progress. It’s not the destination, it’s the journey! It’s now or never. I really want to get better. I’m sick of the same old, same old. Speaking of, tomorrow someone on You Tube is having a social anxiety walk. I am definately going. What we have to do is film ourselves walking outside for no more than 10 minutes. Then post a video response to it on You Tube. Sounds like fun! I love to walk anyway!

I guess that’s just about it. I may write in here later seeing how it’s so early in the morning. Someone was on the Christians in Recovery site last night…it was just the host and me and one other person that went to the recovery meeting. And she could relate to me in a certain way. I don’t want to say why as it’s not something I feel comfortable expressing on here. But, she gave me her email and I said I wanted to keep in touch with her for support and friendship. That was a good start for me. I’m happy about that.

I realized yesterday that I can’t allow my feelings/circumstances in my life to overcome me. I allow them to defeat me.  That’s not right.

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