Counseling Concerns

So these are the issues that I need to talk to the counselor about:

• Anxiety/Nervousness
• Decison making/indecision/mixed feelings/putting off decisions
• Depression/Sadness/Low mood
• Eating problems/Overeating
• Emptiness
• Failure
• Fears/Phobias
• Financial or money trouble/debt/impulsive spending/low income
• Friendships
• Interpersonal conflicts
• Loneliness
• Nervousness, tension
• Oversensitivity to rejection
• Panic or anxiety attacks
• Pessimism/negative thoughts
• Relationship problems
• Self-esteem
• Shyness/Oversensitvity to criticism
• Sleep Problems — Insomnia
• Stress, relaxation, stress management, stress disorder, tension
• Tramautic events in childhood or as adult
• Weight and diet issues
• Withdrawl, isolating
• Singleness

Yeah, I know. How am I not a wreck, right? LOL! That’s quite a list. They had 3 pages of issues where you had to check off and those are the issues I checked. Except for singleness. I added that in myself under Other — please specify. I’m really nervous about this whole counseling thing in a way because I’ve never told anyone anything and to get all of those issues out is going to be hard. Especially, at first when I’m talking to a stranger. Although I can only benefit from it in the end. Change for the better, right? What good is worrying about all of this going to do anyway?

Dan never called me last night. I’ve got to stop getting my hopes up. 

I’m really struggling here, believe it or not, on the funny videos. The main thing that is holding me back in the winter weather but I’m not going to quit. I am going to go forward with it. I am having a hard time with deciding on other factors as well. I’m not going to be specific here, because I want this to be a surprise for all of you. Maybe I’m being too much of a perfectist here. I don’t know. I mean I’ve been waiting since 2006 or 2007 to do this.

I’m hoping my brother comes today. He said he would, but sometimes he says that and never shows. I miss him. As I was writing this, he did come. We went out to eat, went shopping, etc.

Love Always,

~Steph~