Scared….

I know. I know. I already wrote in here today. Sorry. I need someone to talk to though. It’s 9:30pm and I am going nuts. Why? Because of what could happen tomorrow. WHAT WAS I THINKING when I gave Jay that note? Boy, I am so stupid. So dumb. Seriously. I could have lost my job. Who knows?! Maybe I will!!! Ahhhh! I am so stupid. Never again. If Ellen knows, she’ll tell Ashley and Ashley might confont me about it….yet again….if Eric knows, he will say something to Ashley….and BOOM! Oh well. I’ve been sick with fear all night. Shaking. My stomach feels like I am going to get sick. I almost did today too. Oh my! I need to think about what I’m doing next time. I don’t ever want to see Jay again. Seriously. I am so mad at him. I am scared out of my mind over tomorrow. I won’t be able to sleep tonight. I just know it. What’s wrong with me?!

Love Always,

~Steph~