WHY CANCER?

okay so I know I had the beginning signs of cervical cancer, I got on some antibiotics, and had some cells removed last year. The doctor wants me to go back and get a check up like every 3 months. ..because I had abnormal paps

my mom owns a health food store and called me up. She did some research and told me that birth control pills increase the risk of cervical cancer three times..(which I am currently taking)

I told her there’s no way I would get off birth control because my boyfriend and I aren’t ready to have children yet. What am I supposed to do?

Having cervical cancer can make me unable to have children

I don’t know what to do..I hate this..

now the signs are comming back. I just moved to a new area and don’t have a doctor here. yet Nobody here that I know has any idea about this and every night I lie in bed awake and think about it..I hate being alone.

I sort of told my boyfriend about it a couple weeks ago but I don’t think he understands the seriousness of it, or my feelings

I don’t understand why it had to happen to me? What did I do to derserve this? I wish God or somebody would let me know.. I’m so confused.