Howard Smith

I have another crush. Yeah, this is true. I’ve been feeling pretty good lately and it doesn’t have a thing to do with the guy I am crushing on.

Howard,

I think the thing that made me like you is your spirit and the fact that you have a relationship with God. They day I found out that you went to church, made me like you even more. Even if I was too scared to admit that I liked you in the first place. I love the fact that you are older than me, and you seem wiser but I would have to get to know you better to really find that out. Can I? I hope I get the chance. But only time will tell and since we work together, I definitely won’t make any moves. But if you are willing to take that chance, I will happily accept. Hmmmmm. I subconsciously try to find any reason to go to shipping just to see you, I think ppl are starting to notice so I need to chill out on that for a while. Do you notice? I noticed you? 2 7 and 37 ain’t that far apart…and I am soooo tired of dating immature bastards my age! I need someone older, someone grounded, someone who has a teaching and nuturing spirit like you. Are you married ? I heard you wasn’t, I hope that its true. Plus you never talk about a wife when I see you. And there is no ring, but at our job you aren’t allowed to wear any jewlery so that gets me nowhere.

Well, I am done wishing that this or that man would be mine because it all ends up terrible! I am just gonna stand by the advice one of my friends gave me. God, if he is meant for me and it is in your will please let me get to know him, if he is meant to do me harm, then give me the strength to let it go.