Thinking it Through for Next Time.

I get physically nausous when Robert calls or I hear his voice. I literally feel like I am going to vomit and seeing his number on my caller ID makes me want to chop off my ears.  I don’t know why I all of a sudden feel this way but it can’t be a good sign.

Maybe its because I’m not sure I can trust him. I guess it doesn’t make much a difference since, according to him "we’re friends."  That’s what I get for not following my gut. My gut told me that he was gay and I always assumed we were friends but he just had to take it there and I allowed myself to be taken so that’s what I get. I guess its my fault. I guess I know better for next time.