Love???

I think I love him. It’s so strange but I get a weird feeling in my heart when I think about him and it feels pretty good. While we haven’t actually gone out on any dates…yet I think he’s a good guy. I guess age is only a number right. What will my parent’s say when I bring home a man old enough to be my father? (He’s in his mid-40’s.) He has a great heart and that is what I love.

He offered to cook for me but I’m not too sure about that one. I think dinner at a nice restaurant would be lovely. People actually think I should sleep with him, but I’m a virgin, probably the oldest on the face of the earth. Despite the fact that I truly know in my heart that this man is absolutely phenomenal I don’t know if I want someone that old to take my virginity. I’ve seriously thought about this!!! I guess I’m confused. I was always brought up and taught that you should wait until marriage, but what if I never get married. What if I’m 43 and still a virgin? SCARY! What if I sleep with this great man and get pregnant? He doesn’t exactly know that I know how old he is and he won’t discuss it. I don’t even think that he looks his age but I guess I’m more hung up on his age than he is. He’s also the youngest!!!

I look forward to seeing him all the time and my day just doesn’t go right if I don’t talk to him. Could it be that he’s having some  kind of crisis? Just wondering. Thanks for listening…er, reading.