Soooooooo depressed!

I really hate my life right now. I hate eveything. I hate that my so called bf can’t go out with me on his own we ALWAYS have to go together with our friends. He’s cheap. I pay for my own dates. Never took the card I got him so I trashed it. I’m done with him. I’m calling it quits today. Instead of telling him, I’m just going to start acting funny. Not be around him or talk to him. I have told him so many times to pick up the romance but he hasn’t. Yeah he did come spend time with me Sat but it wound up in sex like always amid my protesting. True he did stop but 10 mins later there he is again trying to force his way in so I just said fuck it. Plus, he makes me pal around with our friends and gets mad cuz I’m not in the mood to kiss him, look at him or to basically have any interaction with hm. He is too fucking needy for me. How fucking inconsiderate is that when my freaking Mom is dying and I’m in emotional turmoil! Here goes the is it ADHD or is it him? All I know is I’m done. It’s too much going on in my life right now. I have grad school to prepare for and a house to run and I’m praying that not for another decade a Mom to bury! Did he get me anything nice to say cheer up or it’s going to be ok? NO. All he gave me was fucking sperm I didn’t want and a morning after pill I have to buy! Bad enough that I didn’t get the one for last week and it’s after the ab so I have no clue what’s going on in there! It’s a chance I’m knocked up again by him. I’m not doing anything for Vday either. My excuse: I thought you wern’t the romantic type! I didn’t know. Eventually he’ll get it. Grad school is just at the end of the year!