Truth is…

I do love HP but I’m not sure if I should stay. I’m kind of embarassed that I do. Why? His age, what people think and how he sometimes treats me. I find myself asking is this him or the ADHD? He can act weird sometimes and can do things that hurt my feelings. I didn’t get a chance to talk to him fully. He ignored my calls, emails and im’ed but briefly. I’m going WTF. I think he may be advoiding me cuz he doesn’t know what to do himself. I’m his first real anything and this can be hard to deal with. Maybe he thinks that advoiding me will make it go away. I want to solve it so we can get on. From now on, I’m going to show him more that I care. I just don’t know what to do? ADHD isn’t going to stop and if we have kids, one or all of them will have it. He doesn’t take critisim well so iDK what is going on! Everywhere I look is dump him for his sake. Maybe I should.  It will hurt. Then I’m like what if I can’t do any better than him? I’ve had a lot of losers in my life and he’s the first one I actually enoy having sex with. Oral is another story but for a newbie, what do I expect?!! His flaws aren’t something that can’t be fixed. I believe he is ust unexperienced and it’s not intentional but what if it is? Then I’m really getting played! I want to tell him I’ve been researching this to make our relationship run smoother but it’s such an issue that he shuts me out totally. Why do I get the hard job!!!!