Chaos….as usual

Not sure why I am writing. Usually I have a real focus for these entries. I just feel that I should write tonight. I decided to accept the job in NY, and will be moving there at the end of the month. That means things are totally crazy for me right now. I have to find a subleaser for my apartment, sell my car, and find a place to live in NY, all in the next 2+ weeks. Initially things looked really good for getting a subleaser, but nothing has come through yet, so i’m getting a little more anxious. I’ve been completely overwhelmed with responses to my craigslist ad for my car. Obviously I underestimated something along the way. I’ve literally gotten 60+ responses, and haven’t gotten a handle on how to organize this. I’m just going to start calling people at random to come see it. I tried to be super organized about it, and things are just all over the place. I’m flying out to NY on friday for the weekend to look at housing, so i’ll need to scour craigslist and other places during the week to set up appointments. Things are completely chaotic, but I kinda feel like any move would have been somewhat like this. I really haven’t had any time to reflect on my decision, to enjoy my remaining time here, or even to look ahead to NY and the future. I’m just caught up in the details right now. If I could get even 1 of my 3 big tasks accomplished, that would ease my mind considerably. I will definitely be able to sell the car, so that is more of a hassle than a concern. Housing is a real concern however. I can stay with my family in NY as long as I need, which is comforting, but I would really rather just be able to move in somewhere and start the settling in process. This is a really stressful time for me. Physically I feel bad, i’ve put on a ton of weight and that really bothers me, but I feel like I really don’t have the time or energy to tackle that problem right now. I feel like if I could just do things one at a time I would be ok, so that’s where my focus needs to be. I really don’t even have to desire to deal with this all right now. But life doesn’t always give you that choice, so you just gotta suck it up and deal with it. I procrastinate when I’m stressed. That’s why I’m writing. There is my focus for this entry.