red eyes & tears

red eyes and tears no more for you, my love, i fear

Today, in a harsh blast from reality that burnt like a mother fucker, i realised that it’s time to let go and move. I can’t dwell on it anymore. I can’t keep going through this frustration and anger and pain. I have to let go of him. Everything has to stop reminding me of him, and us and "this one time…"

It’s pathetic of me, I know. I disgust myself. But i’m ridding myself of the past in every other way, so it’s time to move on from him.  I tore everything off my walls. I hacked off all my hair. Changed so many things in an attempt to move away from the past.

I can’t keep holding on to a beautiful past, even though I know how ugly the future is going to be.