The Most Valued Gift Given

If anyone has ever known me just a little bit, they would know that I wasn’t going to give my virginity up until I was married. Well…I made it until I was almost 19 years old. 

That’s right.  It happened on December 15th, 2007 at around one in the morning..and it felt like it was supposed to. I’ve never met anyone like Rory..nor will I ever. I felt like I was ready to take that step.  And I’ve never been so happy. It was really beautiful. Nothing like what I expected though. I had built up the feeling of sex almost to a fantasy-like state.  Let me tell you, it was no fantasy, it was much better.  Reality is a thousand times better..the feeling is a thousand times more vibrant.  With just the flickering of the candlelight, he slowly inched his way inside and although it hurt more than I imagined, our eyes stayed locked on each other. And after several minutes of slowly inching..we become one. 

Although I didn’t make it to marriage….I feel like marriage for me isn’t more than 5 years away..and Rory WILL be the one for me. I know.

Now after about 15 times of making love, it has finally stopped hurting me. It still hurts every once in a while when he goes in too deep but it feels so good.  As cliche as this may sound, and you don’t have to believe me, but it has made our relationship stronger and we have a connection I’ve never had with anyone else.

I’ll never regret this.

Always & Forever

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