I Suck At This!

I know it’s been forever. So so sorry Ms. Diary. Time has passed so quickly. I can’t even remember what happened this summer. Rory and I had been together almost 7 months. It’s been almost a week since we broke up now. He was perfect. Maybe that’s why I drew away from him. Strange, right? God, believe me, I know. Do I feel like the biggest bitch in the world? Yes. He’s still living in my house, but that is alright with me. I want him to keep his job so he can finally get a car so he can maintain his job. He is doing so well now. He is going to school and working right afterwards. It scares me also, the way that he may be wearing himself out. I would explain what happened last Sunday, but everytime I talk (or in this case, type) it brings back the memories of his face and the tears running down it. If there is anything that I never want to see again. It’s Rory…crying. God, please bless him. Help him. Lift his spirits please. Next time, I will try to follow my heart rather than my head.

I’m in college now. Yep. Crazy right? I know. I’m 18 and in college. That doesn’t seem possible. I’m still supposed to be the silly little girl in her daddy’s arms. Living in the dorms is the best thing ever. My roommate is awesome. I love being around everyone all the time. I’ll prolly do this next year, then live off campus. This isn’t the college I’d dreamt of coming to, but it has turned out to be perfect for me and my personality.

Everyone has been awesome lately. I’ve taken a large appreciation to my family and friends. Not that I didn’t before, but my appreciation has raised so many levels.

That’s it for now. Hopefully I will talk to you soon.