Perfection Dies b/c of Previous Heartbreak..

Man oh man. Its been how long? Almost two freakin frakin months since I’ve written. Now it’s almost two o’clock in the morning and instead of playing a game on the computer, I wanted to write. Or yet, I NEEDED to write.

Life has been pretty stinking swell lately. Rory and I are great. He’s the most sweetest guy ever! The only problem..he deserves what I’m afraid I won’t be able to give him. And that my friends, is my heart. I think I have his…he’s hooked, I do believe. Which is unfortunate but the other day I decided that I had better tell him what was going on. I told him that a long time ago..a boy named Eric hurt me really bad and I had decided not to let that happen again..so layers and layers have been placed over my heart..where it might stay..until I’m ready. Anyways, he understood and I was scared that might change the way he acts around me but it didn’t. He’s really playful and adorable. He may just be the one to start peeling back the layers…maybe.

We didn’t have school on Friday so Thursday night, Lace and I stayed with 8 guys down at Bambam’s grandpa’s cabin which is awesome, btw. It was a fun and crazy night. I got a little tipsy which felt really good. What felt wierd though was all the guys smoking weed around us. That’s never happened to me before and I’m just glad I didn’t want to try it. Although I did take some drags from a cigarette and had two grape cigars…lol. Not anything I would do while sober.

Anyway..I’m really really tired so ttyl.

I miss writing..but I’m hardly at home anymore. I love being around him.