Shock & Being 18!

Let’s see here..where to start. Yesterday 4th hour..

B-banks asked me out on a date. Yep..my best friend. Uh..I think I was frozen for a second or two before any words came out. All I could say was I didn’t want Lacey to be upset. And then..I pretended like it never happened. He asked me later in the day if we were still getting together last night to drink and I said sure..even though we had no where to drink at. Well..later in the day I figured I would ask Lace. She would want to know what we were doing anyways.

To my surprise, Lace did end up coming with us last night. We drove around trying to figure out a place when finally we just drove to some back road (which we figured is an awesome place to drink from now on) and got drunk. I didn’t get too drunk..I was definitely more sober than B-banks and Lace but we had a good time. We laughed and actually ended up crying at a few moments. Lacey decided to let everything out. More than what I had already knew. And..then B-banks decided to tell us his biggest secret of all time. He’s been bulimic for two years. That shocked the piss out of Lacey and I…BULIMIC? I never thought it was possible for any of my friends to have this disorder. We might have low self-esteem from time to time..but not to a point this bad. If anyone has any ideas on how to help him, without telling anyone else…please tell me. Lots of things were revealed last night.  B-banks told lacey how he felt about me..and he told me more than what I thought he felt. He’s been feeling this way for quite some time now he said. I felt really bad about telling him he is one of my best friends..and that all I see him as. Oh..and he freakin shoved his toungue down my throat! And Lacey’s. He kept bugging us all night about kissing us. We definitely didn’t want to..but he got us both close enough to where he shoved his stupid toungue into our mouths before we knew it. It was disgusting.

Anyways..so today I’m the big 1-8! We want to drink again tonight..we just don’t know where. : (

The day is pretty much half over with and I smell and I need to go home and take a shower and put on some new clothes.

Love Always,

Melissa