And The Truth Is Spoken.

I knew it but now I see it. Kyle is abusing J-ca. Verbally. I knew it before but it finally hit home after that speaker that we had on the Cluster trip. He makes her feel so aweful. Tonight I could have punched Kyle for how he was acting. He is not and will not continue to drag me down with him. He wants to act like a baby..and carry on with his self-pity act while the rest of us have a ball..I’m letting him. I am not worried whether he is happy or not. I don’t care whether he is satisfied because to me, its hard to call Kyle my actual friend. He’s ending up a lot like Andy. Where he doesn’t give a flip about anyone but himself.

J-ca is pregnant. Found out tonight. Almost everyone knew except for me. She said she didn’t tell me because she thought I’d be pissed off. I hate that she can’t trust me enough with this. What have I done wrong to make a friend feel like they can’t tell me anything?

So she is pregnant at 17 and…not sure who’s baby it is. Its Kyle’s or Dustin’s. As much as I dispise Kyle right now, I’m praying so hard that it is actually his and not Dustin’s. Yes they both are abusers, but Dustin? He uses his fists also. God, I’m scared. This shouldn’t be happening. Niether of them are fit to be parents. And now this is giving J-ca more reason to stay with him, or so she would like to think. I don’t know what to do besides be there for her. What can I do other than that?

I’ve thought about Eric some today. Half hoping to run into him and half hoping he’d call me. How can you make yourself lose hope?

Too many unanswered questions.

Quote: "Don’t find someone who completes you. Complete yourself and find another complete person so that you compliment each other."