Long Haul

Trudgingly I go…and it does get easier, yet still…the tugs are there and the aches…pangs of needs , wants and desires that for now, will never be sated.  Life is ok..it has found some sense of reality finally…the darkness its there but being abated by the new light ahead.  I t cannot be so easily explained, and I know, those that read here will think its shallow or purely simplistic. It sure is not. There are tremendous forces that no one but urself can comprehend…emotionality cannot be shared no matter how much the other says they understand –truly they don’t,,,,they never once walked your steps, never once able to feel the terror, its deep. an endless abyss…endless ravaging that is a constant fodder of your mind…so if u read here know this, i am ok..i am surviving..i am me- whoever that was is slowly fading…and hopefully one day we shall embrace us again…..(mwah) to those i dearly love