train of thought

Ugh, I write this in the morning, but may have to upload it at night, my dial up is clogged with security update loading. I have to stay offline during business hours to not deter any of the potential employers that aren’t calling.

I’ve been using a cool micros words function to streamline my online writing. I split the page into 2 columns. It keeps my paragraphs shorter and makes them easier to digest, instead of having a half page paragraph.

I noted I celebrated 2 things from 9/11: 1) I got rid of cable not only to save thousands of dollars in the past decade, but to get that 24 hour news coverage away from me that was probably the biggest thing to make me chicken Little of all the global crises we face. 2) I don’t think I’ll ever fly in a plane as long as travellers are persecuted by the rogue polie state posing as TSA security.

On my digital rabbit ears, I sometimes gain 2 extra channels. I can’t plan to watch anything, since reception is erratic for some reason depending on time of day, position of planets, outside metal or radio traffic, all kinds of things I don’t understand.

I’m trying something new for October. I’m so goddamn tired of worrying about money that I’m going to take another applying break, since putting your all to get no response takes more out of me, researching a company to write things about them on cover letters.

In October I want to work on being positive, at least look at the bright side of things. I have found some pages online to help me with this from twitter. I follow a lot of zen quotes, feel good quotes and positive bloggers. They help.

I want to live my life, I want to enjoy things. I want to dare to have fun. I even get analytical about that, I want to have fun in a way that I may learn something from, not waste my time or take losses. And that means not doing anything that will make me regret the money I spent or wake up with a hangover, or make me feel like a consumer idiot feeding corporate fat cats.

November, I want to take on nanowrimo. I have  a few books perculating in my mind that regularly outline and peck at. But for Nano, I’m considering just writing 30 definitive mmoments of my life. Just write freestyle, with just an outline of what the top 30 are, 1 a day and then a summary or into chapter. whenever I need to look something uyp, I’ll just put it in brackets as a note or something. I just want to write my memories out as I think of it all.

I’ve been on the fence with technology. i’m so pissed at all the problems computers created, from killing and making obsolete all kinds of american industries, from music to books, to cars, etc. but they take their profits and send them overseas to tax havens, sitting there accumulating while America gets financially raped.

I’ve been shopping for another web blog site, something where I have control over the layout and where I can have a friends list of some sort, where other people have to log in to leave comments. I can’t seem to get more readers here, and the friend function is weird, just adding without some kind of request and approval. I used to write with so many people I lost contact with from here. I admittedly need to interact more with other writers, but I also want comments to come from more people easier.

I will keep this blog and should pick a day of the week to update it. Even 52 entries/ year is consistent. I hate reading a good random blog to find the last time it was updated was in 2007.

 My dilema is I’ve been anti technology and i-anything. But if I am gullible to believe the salesman, everyone is making money from blogging, social media, networking. I know there are 14 million people unemployed that don’t seem to be earning any income this way.

I keep reading about the authors of e-books going on tours, twittering and entrepreneurs somehow eking out a living and paying their bills. But when I read firther, they’re making money making promises that other people can do this, but you have to buy their book, pay for their seminar and sit thru it, take their courses, etc.

Then I read about the scams that this is how they make the money, with the lure and promise. motivational speakers do this, self-help books, business books, they all do it. do I want to be a flim flam man for the money? how regularly do these people get threatened when they go somewhere?

I may be running out of words here, but I wanted to finish on a positive. I have been taking advantage of my local library and get to check out 10 DVDs at a time and literally 1 hundred items for 3 weeks at a time, which of course can be staggered with visits the 4 days/ week they’re open. so far, I can get thru the 10 movies/ week and 2-3 books. I imagine I can make a good dent in winter with this library, if i ever get bored I can take on the big downtown/ State U library.