Life

Life sucks. The end.

Just kidding… well, about the end part.

So, for the last 3 weeks I haven’t heard from any of my friends. How awesome is that?! (kidding about that too). I’m very pissed off. I’m sure everyone is tired of hearing me rattle on and on about how my friends SUCK and thinking in their heads that I need to go out and find new friends, obviously. But, why bother? Seriously… I have put alot of time and energy into keeping the friends I have now…I’m tired, fed up and yeah, I’m lonely, but I’d rather be by myself than being around people who don’t give a flying fuck about me… and the ones who have been showing they give a flying fuck are the ones who don’t even live in Iowa. Always the bridesmaid and never the bride… that’s me.

I’m in that funk of “is this all there is to life” and I can’t seem to get myself out of it. Maybe if something good would happen every once in awhile things would be different. I work too much and when I’m not working I spend WAY too much time alone which would be ok normally, but not when I’m in a funk… only because unfortunately I don’t have a on and off switch to my brain. UGH.

Work is going ok. Both jobs. I’ve been putting in alot of hours and it seems like I live there most of the time.

I am watching Miracle again right now waiting until 3 when I have to work. Passing the time so I’m not just sitting here thinking.

Well ya’ll… hope everyone is doing swell… hit me up with some notes if ya want… it would give me something to do to help with the lonliness… lol.

Alissa