Response to T’s notes:

WOW.

Ok, first off, I have never pushed my beliefs onto Poulas, and I don’t intend to start doing that now. He knows where I stand, and I know I’m not going to change him.

I accepted it a long time ago that he is into guys, and not girls. I may not like it, but I accepted it.

Because of my relgious history homosexuality is a sin. Don’t even call me one of them people who are out to hurt him… you know damn well I would never do anything to hurt him or any other homosexual. I would give my life for Poulas… and you know that, it hurts to even think you would consider me a homophobic or a hater. Poulas has been the only one I go to with anything- how does that make me a homophobic or a hater? I love him.

I’ve heard plenty about his experiences with men. It is constantly there… I never said it didn’t exist.

Be the person to him that he has been to me? Honey, I’m the one who has kept that relationship going… and it has nothing to do with my relgious beliefs or anything… it has to do with the “thems” that you talked about earlier that made him fearful of getting close to people. Over the years he has opened up… but I was the one pushing him… loving him when everyone else had given up on him. Don’t tell me that I don’t love him unconditionally. I have taken him for what he is and I love him- yeah I may not agree with it, but that doesn’t mean I don’t support him.

Be proud of him for admitting the real person? HE LIED TO ME FOR 6 MONTHS ABOUT BEING GAY!! Did ya miss that part? When I first met him, he denied and denied that he was gay when all of us had our suspicions. How can you be proud of someone for that when obviously they weren’t proud of it themselves? If he was proud of being gay, why did he deny it for so long to anyone? And don’t tell me it was because of fear…. fear of others treating him differently? Give me a freakin’ break. Nobody treated him differently.

I accepted him into my heart and into my life. Yeah, I don’t agree with it, but I gave my all for that guy.

I don’t know where you are getting off saying all this crap to me… when obviously you don’t know me all that well apparently after all this time of reading this stuff. Yeah, I’ve made a couple of mistakes with him.

The only reason I felt attacked is because people like you judge people on their beliefs. And the fact that you’re attacking me now and thinking that you know what Poulas and I are like or how we feel about each other or how we act towards each other shows how ignorant you are about this and have no right to accuse me of all this.

I used to respect you and your words, but now, after being attacked, I can understand how you can push people away. Maybe you shouldn’t judge people the way you say you hate people judging you cause that is exactly what you are doing here. And who are you to judge me?

Poulas means the world to me, and if he pushes me away for any reason it won’t be the reasons you are pointing your finger at me with. There is alot more to Poulas than you realize and than I have ever said on here. So, keep your judgement to yourself, I don’t need it.