sunday.

 Boy do I love my french press. I need one for work, just a small one. I only use my press on the weekends. It’s prefect with a joint. 🙂

But no joint today, I have to call my friend guy for some more of that ‘green crack’ 😛

Yesterday I spent most of my time laying around looking for places for rent. I must move by July. I saw 2 places. Both garbage basement suites in the worst part of town. But it’s what i can afford. I’ve lived in that area before. I can handle it.

I told my mom where the places were and she said don’t do it.  But the reason I’m deciding that area is so I can be closer to her. I’m still not on great terms with her.. but I realize that I don’t  visit her enough. I don’t have the relationship with her that I want. I miss my little brother. Living so far away is silly… I am really only on this side of town because of Mitch. And he’s not number one for me anymore. I have to think of myself and whats gonna make me happier in the long run. 

So Jesse my friend is compeletly out of the picture as a roommate. I’m kinda pissed about him taking this time to get back to me. He sounded like he wanted to be roommates with me. And then yesterday he said we was moving the next day with his new roommates. i didn’t even get any kind of heads up that he was thinking of not going ahead with me. I was a little shocked that he found a place and was moving the next day…. fuck. I was kinda relying on him as a roommate. My feelings are a little hurt but I was kinda expecting him to do this. He’s already lived with me and seen what I’m about. I wouldn’t want to live with me either.

I place I like is $750 plus %40 utilities 1 Bedroom.  Pretty nice condition, nice bathroom and kitchen. But it’s kinda pushing it.

The other place that i’m probably gonna get is a flat $750. ugly kitchen and bathroom. really no kitchen counters. But it has a big bedroom and an extra bedroom that is more like a office. It needs to be painted. But I can do it no problem. I reason I like this place is because of the extra bedroom. I can maybe move someone in in the future. And then rent would be cheaper! I need to look at both places before I make a choice of course. 

I was thinking of getting a moving crew to move my shit. I still don’t want to ask my mom for help.  I don’t want another cat fight. 

Mitchs family is moving today. They found a place close to his house.. kinda sweet. Theres no way he would leave his dump now. Today he was talking about doing handy work around his place. Fix the taps, the door handle, paint. I laughed my ass off. How about you start on those dishes first. The ones that have been sitting there for 2 weeks because I refuse to do them AGAIN for the forth time in a row.  

I can not wait to leave this place. I thought it was such a great idea to move in here temporarily. Though maybe it would have strengthened our relationship and changed his mind about getting a place together. The only thing it did was drive us apart. I think less of him now. Mostly because I’m hurt that he has stopped trying to better our fucked up relationship. I feel like he can’t wait for me to get the fuck out. He really drove the last nail into the casket. Who the fuck is gonna do his laundry now.

 

His mommy.

 

Whom I’ve had a dream about lastnight. Super weird. She was singing a song to mitch in another room. The song was about how he is her only good kid who she loves. She sang ill of her other kids. I told Tina (mitchs little sister) about all the nasty things her mother was saying about her and I watched her cry. Seriously weird dream. 

Yoji my kitty got out lastnight. I kinda let it happen. It was his first time being alone outside. It was night time so I felt oky with it. Then he didn’t come home. I looked for him and couldn’t find him. He’s black as night. Mitch was freaking out saying I was a bad mom and that I should spend all night looking for him because he isn’t coming back. I wasn’t really worried. I left the window open he would come back. I woke up at 5 am and checked if he was home. And he was. He was spread out on the couch under the window. I gave him a big kiss and closed the window. He followed me back to bed where he got under the covers and laid in my belly. I trust him to come back. He’s getting older now and I feel more comfortable with letting him outside. That’s probably gonna change with the new place.

 

I’m going to call those places now and set up a viewing time. Maybe today.