05/29/2012

Thanks for all the notes. I really wish I had answers for why I stay with someone who is obviously not right for me. We used to be right for eachother. We have a very simular attitude, I think. I do love him. I wish things were better between us. I’m a pretty damaged person and I do take a lot of the blame for things being the way they are. I believe that people can change. People are always growing and learning from life…

I got some new work shoes. They feel so good. I don’t know why I waited so long before getting a new pair. I got some gel in-souls too.

I got stung by a wasp like 40 mins ago. He was in a blanket on my couch, probably stuck. He’s dead now.  My finger hurts.

I’ve decided to purchase a car from a coworker. It’s $500, which is something I can afford! and actually willing to put into something that I don’t think I really need. I think it’s a red corella or something… it’s standard, which might be an issue at first. Oh and it’s in Edmonton. She said she would get it for me, it’s at her parents house. I haven’t been to Edmonton in a couple years. I could probably do some shopping. I haven’t done any research in car insurance. She told me I can get coverage for other people’s cars for like $40 a month. I rather not pay for my car to be covered in insurance if it’s just a little better I could afford that. Since a bus pass is $95. I would probably still take the bus to work though. Lol. I will be seeing this vehicle in July.

I have to get my drivers license. LOL. I’ve had my learners for 3 years now. I’m too lazy. I’m actually a very good driver. My mom would let me borrow her car all the time. I got a lot of practice in. But not in a standard car. :S

I’ve been watching a lot of this doomsdays prep bullshit on tv. I’ve always believed the world will come to an end in my lifetime. It would be the cherry on the cake for me. I would totally survive. I’m quite the gardener and I would own the fuck out of chickens. I wished I lived on a farm to actually be doing these things naturally. My grandmother always had a massive garden. She once owned chickens and live stock as well.  I think I could do pretty well, I would move more down south for warmer weather,,