12/23/2010

lastnight mitch said to me that he feels that i am leaving him. that i have found someone new. he says that the last stunt he pulled was probably going to end our relationship. he also asked me why i was still being nice to him.

i do feel alot more distant from him. i guess it a good why to end a relationship. hate his life so much that you fall out of love.

although i haven’t found anyone new. i was confused as to why he thought that. he’s paranoid maybe because he lies himself. and he likes the revenge game. but to be %100 honest i have been taking numbers. but i haven’t been bad or unfaithful. i haven’t sex texted like he did with ashely. i haven’t even met up with anyone. my phone is clean as a bible.

and i’m not to sure why i’m being nice to him. when i lay beside him and think about all the shit he’s done to me i physically move over. i’m so mad and disgusted i need to get away from him.

we both agreed we are fucked. and that we could never be happy together and never get married. he said he doesnt want any pussy but mine. and he can’t bare to be away from me.

i told him that if he went out on new years without me that i would never see him again. i think im just, after what he’s been doing to me. theres no reason why he can’t spend it with me. I work in a club.  it’s like halloween all over again. obviously i need to put my foot down. then he told me he would rather sit at home by himself instead of going to my work. so i said fine. sit at home.

i gotta work tonight, i should get ready.