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WOW, have much has happened since my last entry. Where does one begin? Well, to start off with, I must say to my great friend "L" no prob hun, Gotta luv ya lol

Well, like I said before, alot has happened since my last entry. I don’t even know where to begin.

Fer starters, I finally got my second Tatt started, thanx to meetin up with an old friend of mine. Wanna see? Check it out:

Don’t it look good? We still have to redo the outline, and color and add the stars, but I am sooo o siked lol. And please, I hope no one takes offense to it. I am very intrigued by the era that this flaf represents, not anythin else.

On to other topics. "R"    Oh my GOD!!!!!! Talk bout things goin well. I must still admit that I have my reservations, but all in all, they are at this point, still my own insecurities right now. We have spent every Friday together, whether alone or not. It has been awesome to say the least. A few weeks ago, I brought my friend "M" into the picture, and she and "B" seem to be hittin it off well. Anyways. I Don’t want to go into EVERYTHIN that has happened, so I am just goin to emphasize a few things. First off, up until last weekend, "R" has been very laid back and not public, per say, bout how he acts towards me, infront of anyone. This last weekend, he was, not completely, but in a way, all over me. In front of "B" and "M." When I asked him why, he told me it was cuz "B" had someone with him now, and we didn’t need to worry bout whether he was interested in me or not anymore. Totally kewl, right? I didn’t think any further of it. Also, that nite, I had a little bit of a "drama" incident. Totally Not Planned!!!! "B," "M," & "R" were rough housin, I had not joined in, and they, mostly "B," had ened up gettin "M’s" bra off. So, "R" turned to me, and proceded to tryin to get mine off. Now, I have an issue there. Due to reasons I care not to go into, I don’t like NOT wearin my bra outside of my home unless I am sleepin. Well, "R" was abel to get it off me. I ended up sittin in a Fetal postion on the floor with my arms across my chest, shakin. He lead me to the back room, apologized, said he didn’t realize. I told him it was ok, he didn’t know. He let me put my bra back on. But before that, "B" cam eback and tried to play psychologist, lol, tryin to get out of me why I had freaked out like I did. Then, "M: came back playin all "Best friend" and what not. I was finally able to step back further into the room and put it back on. Things were ok after that. Then later that nite, "R" and "M" went to Filiberto’s, the local mexican fast food, yummy, place, to grab some grub. We were all hungry at that point. I didn’t think to ask her till Sunday bout it. Anyways, I had a chance to talk to "R" later that nite, lol, and I found out a few things. I mentioned to him how he doesn’t like certain words, He said yeah, the "C" word, meanin "Cute." I was like yeah, and another "C" word. I meant Commitment. He nkew what I was talkin bout. He told me that he does want that, and that he is interested in me, but he feels that I am not ready, nor am I over my ex yet. I told him that I was full aware that he had company of the female kind twice that past week. He looked at me and asked me if I thought he had slept with them? I told him it didn’t matter, I was not his GF. He could sleep with whomever he wanted to. He then turned to face me, looked me straight in the eye, and told me that he hasn’t been with anyone else, other then me. And that he was, still apparently reassurin me, very much interested in me. We left it at that.

Well, in Sunday, while I was drivin around with my friend "M," I remembered how she and "R" had gone to get food that nite, so I asked her, did he say anythin bout me? She said he did. He told her that he did like me ALOT, and that he was very much interested in me. But again, he doesn’t think that I am over my ex, and that I am not ready. Then he turned around and said that I smother him. I couldn’t at the time figure out why he would say that. I don’t bug him durin the week. And when we all hang out together, I don’t "hang" all over him then either. She said she didn’t know, it didn’t make sense to her either. Well, I got to thinkin bout it the other nite. The only thing that I can think of is when we are alone together, ya know, in the bedroom. Whether we have sex or not, I start to get clingy. I want to do what most women/girls/females want to do. CUDDLE. lol So I kinda figured I would slow down in that department. Guess we will see how it goes….

Well, it is almost  1am, and I need to ge to bed.

Will update later,

Smooches