from first to last

“shes simple yet confusing, and her sparkling eyes make me weak to my heart”

I’m here again alone, “I’ve been lonely for so long” rudy how do you always seem to say things that hits right to my heart. I’m gonna steel part of your entry now…..”I just want someone to care about me. Someone who wants to be with me. I sit at home at night alone and feel so lonely. And it makes me sad. It makes me wonder what is so wrong with me. How can I be such a great person [as people tell me] yet not good enough to be loved. *sigh* I just dont know. I have just been realizing that I probably will be alone forever. And I just have to learn to accept that.”    thanks….

monday I go out to sea for like 2 weeks, think I get back the 19th or something. damn it gonna miss helmet. last time I saw them was in 98 I think. with the melvins. that has to be one of the best shows I’ve seen. didn’t even know helmet was still togther. oh well. I’m gonna go crazy being on the boat for that long, wouldn’t be so bad if I wasn’t cranking… stupid fucking fsa’s