6/22/05

I hate the feeling of being jelous! HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE IT! It’s probley so freaking stupid. Ugh. I’m trying not to be. I really am. it’s not working to well. I suppose I should get over it and move on! It’s nothing..It’s nothing.. I shouldn’t even worry. He wouldnt do that. Tyler tried to reasure me. I know he wouldnt..but it still doesnt help the thought’s comming to mind. I hate feelings sometimes, why can’t they just go away. Life would be somewhat eaiser for me. I mean not all feelings, just the shitty ones. Like this one. I shouldn’t even think about it. How could I?!  *bangs head on computer* I’ll just stop! Think of other things. Other. THINGS… I am such a stupid stupid girl. My eyes weld up with tears if I can’t talk to him. I dunno.. I cant belive the things I do sometimes. I need a freaking tissue..