Upcoming Stutters

What is going on with me?  The past couple of days I dont know what is happening in my head.  Yesterday I had this insane wish to cut, today I ended up so stressed out I could not wait to get out of the room.  I have had to rely on the Vistaril more recently, starting to shake and I ‘feel’ the stutter going to happen (luckily this has not happened so far) and here I am popping the pills.  I keep them for emergencies mainly, and yes boys and girls I concider the shaking and stutter to be an emergency.  Close on those heels comes the panic attack.

This is generally strange. 

I am working on Turkey Day but not Black Friday.  I need to schedule my pilgramage to Lenox for Godiva  at some point.  Me, with my social phobias hitting the mass of people during the Christmas season, I have to be crazy, yes?

I need more money, I owe Flakes for Mothers gift and Bob, havent got The MAdScientist orBlood yet, much less the more difficult ones, Dad and Kamon.

I need food too.. erg.. dinner.