Past and Present

Part of this I wrote last night…..

The voices have been screaming in my head today, at least after I hit up Wally World for supplies.  So that means boys and girls that I have had music playing LOUDLY for the past 6 hours or so.  My neighbors must hate me, fuck em they kept me awake with their music too many times during the day.

I did go to poker, lost to the same man once again.. damnit, I am now stuck in second, each time with kick ass hands. 

I need an IPOD or some other MP3 player with massive volume level.  My stereo isnt loud enough and although I have the temptation to go riding around Atlanta in the car just so that I can have the music blaring.  One I dont need to go around wasting gas and second, I dont have a CD player so my choice of music is up to the DJ’s, not usually what I need to hear.

At the house it has been a Black Sabbath, AC/DC and Metallica day.  Throw in some Tom Petty and the Spawn Soundtrack and its been something copecetic.  Still not loud enough, cant handle my Cannibal or Pantera even MSI would just bring about rage.  What I need is a shot of Atreyu, but I am wearing out Suicide Notes.

I keep looking at KMFDM but still undecided.

Fade to Black…..

Today,

Just woke up and it feels like there is a baby elephant sitting on my chest.  Ohgods, this means that cold has settled into my chest and if it doesnt clear on its own in a couple of days I have to see the Dr. 

I just can not really afford this.

Kaiser is $45 a visit and well I dont have that much money to spend at lest 2x a month with the Shrink and all as well. 

I kept the music going all night, even to sleep but for that it ended up Mozart and Beethoven varieties.  I cant sleep to my beloved metal.

I need to organize my desk today, pick up meds from Wally World and get off my tush this evening for Relapse.  Part of me wants to stay in bed.

Going back for a little bit now, its only noon, and its my day off.