Whoo.. fascinating

Feeling kinda tired, want to be off the frigging night shift where we only have 3 people til 6am.  Its disgusting, its irrational, when we get calls its off the hook because we drop 3-7 each time.  There is a bit of quiet again before the next volley comes.

I spent Sept 11 for the most part alone, I could have used company so I ended up grabbing Kander for a couple of hours.  He needed it to, when I lost my head, he lost his wife.  Ce’ la vie is what I am told.  He was a user and still tries to be.  Part of me will always love him but I can not be his wife, there is too much there for me to handle.  The divorce is at a standstill but I am cool with it, I have told him whoever gets the money fastest will have the ‘your fault’ disclosure to place in the file.

If he does first – Abandonment
If I go first – Endangerment.

Whoo, it looks fascinating.

I spend Tue and Wed alone, doing my best to not kill myself and ended up just vegging in front of the television till 7p Wed when I was talked into poker with Blood.    I didnt even make the final table *sob*  but poker has been no luck recently.  Trips and Boats are kicking my ass generally.

Time has come to start the outline of my AIT downtime.  So far I have to research 2 rituals, send off an influence or three toward others and then write to the Tremere Chantry houses.  Fun fun, get the ST’s off the tush because well Tremere’s have a legislative body in many ways. 

I have to start writing again, I have placed a couple of projects on the back burner in my depression delerium.  I have to get them started again or they will sit there for a century.   (Or whenever my beautiful box {that lacks a soundcard} decides to commit seppuku)

I still have D*C photo edits.  Gods help me there, over 100 sitting in a folder at home.

HELP!