What do you want to call this?

"Forgive, sounds good
Forget, I’m not sure I could
They say time heals everything
But I’m still waiting"
                   -Dixie Chicks "Not Ready To Make Nice"

I write more elequently when I am depressed, it seems my vocabulary expounds into something akin to Webster himself. 

I am trying to get back on track, trying to shake myself out of this, even to the point right now I have a towel wrapped around my head and freshly dyed hair.  Its burgandy again, my sister will tell me again tht it looks horrible, but for some reason I can not fathom going to my natural hair color whatever that may be.

I am going to have to teach Luna (mu kitten) that she needn’t be so rough, my right hand looks like I tried to stuff it down a meat grinder.  I indulge her, she is so sweet most of the time until she makes that switch to psycho kitten from hades.  Her name officially is Lunatic but most of the time I call her Luna..

I have tried to make some plans with a friend for Monday at least for the afternoon.  No dice, probably will not hear anything else from that one til the 8th.  However another friend may have some time if he comes up earlier than usual.    But that is a maybe…

From Work…

    Customer went into a COACH store and the salesperson asked her what she would like.  The customer then pointed out one of the winter white bags in leather one of the new styles that COACH is coming out with.  The sales person pulled down the bag and stated "This bag is great for faaaaa.. heav… curvy women like you" 
    The customer pointed out to me on the phone that she wears a size 14 (wtf???  when did that become morbidly obese, most of my clothes are a size 14 as well.. well now we know why I HATE to shop)  and told me that yes, she could stand easily to lose 20 pounds or so but well the lady made it worse… "This kind of bag gives you a slimmer profile"  by this time the lady was completely pissed off, being called fat and made to look like she was Shamu in front of her husband, daughter, the patrons of the store and the employees.  Graciously the customer stated to the salesperson "I’ll come back to get it after I am finished with my other shopping"
    Because I was concerned I asked "Did she avoid other people in the store based on weight?"  the customer stated that she waws more concerned that if someone had a morbid obesity problem that she would stick her foot in her mouth even more.    The salesperson was a stick figure well as the customer put it.  A petite, small and thin woman.

Here comes my questions..

When did having a not so tiny size 6 become a freaking crime?
Why did this salesperson feel the need to harp about another persons weight?

I am a larger lady, I would be more comfortable if I didnt have my pooch, but I tend to kind of like my curves.  I have a womans body not a naive little girls.  Even in my attraction to women I dont want a stick figure, curves are nice and I dont have to fear breaking something.   I am generally healthy, I could use work but that is why I have a gym onsite of the apartment.  Remind me to get over there before Tuesday.

I feel like doing something else like a manicure or something but I need not waste my funds.  I want to pamper myself somehow.  Grrrr I need a Sugar Daddy, haha.  Hell I would deal with someone that gave a damn. 

Almost 10am.. I should go to bed, try to sleep.  ERG….