A conversation to myself

I would never like to have a drug/substance problem…but i bet i can somewhat sympathize with them when they say “it feels great while you are high” but once the high wears off and you are left alone to deal with the reality that is in front of you, it feel empty and it hurts a little bit.
Then why do it in the first place?? Because you crave that sweet voice, because you love the unexpected compliments and hope that you hear “hon or baby” one more time. The minute you hear hear it, it gets you smiling from ear to ear..makes your tummy flutter and you feel good. But then when its time to say good-bye, have a good evening *NOT ” call you later” it hits you!!! Bam!! It was nice while it lasted but it’s over now..it has to be…let it be…make it be…
Stop hurting, fooling, putting yourself out there…
what do you want? For “him” to take you away and live in a magical world of pleasure and happiness…wake up baby girl, this is your world..the 8-5, motherhood, wife, and daughter world!
But you made this world or yours..you wanted this world so bad before you could taste it!! You worked hard for that degree, you worked hard to make the relationship turn into a marriage and you “BOTH” worked hard to make it a family….DONT THROW IT AWAY, just beacuse you want to feel his touch, his kisses….then what??? Then what??? He moves on and guess what…you are still left in your world!
Love your world…live it, you wanted it and you deserve it!
Do you know how many poeple would kill just to have your world….think about it next time you start to dial..28*****