One of my saddest day
Dear diary
Today, I am really really sad, because someone whom I have really trust just make me lose my trust in her totally. I know from today onwards, it won’t be the same, I can’t be the same to them anymore. It’s sad but life is just so pathetic.
It really took me a long time before I start to trust someone again, but it’s all gone within one second. I don’t understand what message does God want me to learn from this, is he trying to verify to me that Man really cannot be trusted? He know how much I took to trust someone and he let me get disappointed again.
I am so sad but I am glad I didn’t cry this time, I am glad that I manage to keep my tears in.
Somehow it’s like a signal for me again, I think it’s time for me to look for another job.
Another sad day gonna come for me again.
Argh life really sucks for me.
I have been working so hard but why am I disappointed once and once again. I trying so hard to survive in this world, so hard that sometimes it’s so hard to breathe, my heart is in so much pain.
Where is my guardian angel? How I hope there’s someone to comfort me now, how I hope there’s someone to pat my shoulder now, and tell me it’s alright, everything gonna be alright. That I will get away from this miserable life soon, forget all my pain soon….
I’m so sorry I couldn’t leave you a note when you first wrote this, you sounded so alone in whatever you were going through. God has a purpose in everything that happens to us, but sometimes it’s a long time before we get to see why he let something happen. I know you want the answers to your “why?” questions now, but it might happen. I’m sorry to hear that you feel so betrayed. That’s…
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… gotta be one of the worst feelings in the world. I’m sorry to hear that you’re going to have find another job. Is that because of this betrayal? I know it’s hard to believe, but even in the times when you feel the most alone and the most neglected by God, he’s still there with you, patting your shoulder and hugging you, even if you can’t always feel him there. He’s always looking after…
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… you in your darkest times. And not only that, but he’s going through these tough times with you, and while you’re shocked and surprised and not expecting what’s going on, he’s got it all under control and knows what’s coming next and how to help you through it. Love, annie
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