Turning 21

Dear diary

I am finally turning 21 this coming Sunday, 22 July. I always wondered what I will be like when I turn 18 years old, and before I knew, I am turning 21soon. Hmmm……it’s really hard to explain the feelings inside me now, I really feel that I haven’t accomplish much throughout my 21 years of life, except study and passing exams, that’s really a sad thing. The worst is I am really lost now, as to the path I should go, as to what I should to do in my future, it’s seems as though I have really forgotten how to live in this world. I really can’t find the meaning of me living in this world. I know I seriously need to do something about this, but I really do not have the courage to anything, I don’t know when I have become such a coward/weakling, I don’t know where have all those confidence gone to, I feel so useless, I just can’t do anything well. I know I am just running away to make myself feel better, because I really don’t know how to face reality. I trying so hard to live in this world.

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July 20, 2007

You know what? I felt pretty much the same way when I turned 21. You grow up thinking about all the amazing things you’ll be doing when you’re 21, and then you get to that age and realize that you haven’t accomplished any of those goals. Maybe you could just sit down and write out some ideas about what you really want to be doing and then try to make some plans about how you might…

July 20, 2007

…accomplish those goals. Maybe if you were even to take a trip somewhere. Like if you were to just go to Japan or Thailand for a week or two with friends, or do some volunteer work in China or something. Have an awesome week, and I hope you can sort out this little quarter-life crisis. -annie