rock bottom

Ugh I’m just so frustarated.

no job

no money

no loans

no school

no Herman

no energy

no determination

no inspiration

no desire to get up and get out

I’m just a bum right now. A homebody. I’m not fun. I’m not exciting. I’m just here, doing nothhing. I’m just numb, in a rut if u will, with no clear indication that I will come out of it. I need something to get me from this rock bottom point I’m at. My biggest fear is that I will have to pack up and go back home. Its the last thing I want to do, but if something doesnt turn up for me soon…like yesterday, I have no choice. Hello old life.

Ugh I’m just so frustrated

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October 20, 2006

I know the feeling. I know I’m just a random noter, but things will get better. the thing is … you have to decide to change your rock bottom attitude even if the situation doesn’t look like its changing. (easier said than done, I know … believe me, I’m still trying to get october’s rent paid, and its almost november!)

October 23, 2006

Don’t drown yet…you can do this. You belong in NY….at least long enough to enjoy and experience things. I’m rooting for you. Luv you sunny

October 23, 2006

u kno i could make a long big sappy sympathetic note, or i could say that rele sucks, and listen to the other noters, they kno wat theyr saying,,,,ya i think ill do that

October 25, 2006

You’ve just summed up my past year almost. But be encouraged and things will get better. At least your in NYC,now all you have to do is find a job. I’m struggling with the same deal but I’m trying to still move to NYC. One thing that I’ve learned it to don’t expect everything to happen at once and on your time(I’ can’t believe I just said that). It never does-so take it day by day and keep hustlin