boo boo boo

and so i tried but its over. no more late night phone calls til the sun comes up. no ones fault. definatly not mine. but i cant help but feel shitty over the situation, cause i wasnt the one to break him. im never anyone’s THE ONE. i have an unhealthy obsession with falling for men who are emotionally unavalible. or maybe its just me? who knows. and so i will lie awake tonight trying to fill my usual talk time with the many thoughts i ignored all day long. my birthday blues are creeping up on me early this year. herman is gone. HE is whatever. i think im getting a stye over my right eye, i think. my period is coming. i never seem to get full ( i want P.F. Changs). my computer sucks (but im slowly getting her fixed). and those are just todays problems..if u can even call them that. my butt hurts from sitting on this hard ass floor. ima go lay down and pop in a movie…alone….like ive been for for years now. *deep sigh, and then another* seeeeeee ya