unfortunatly screwed.

i do way too much traveling. headed up to NoVA yesterday for a party. made a stop along the way to see HIM. It was a good visit. wish things i expected would have happend. but i wasnt as fortunate. however fortunatly i did recieve a call from HIM saying HE cancelled HIS plans so we could get up, but unfortuantly i was already 40mins from home. boys are always a day late and a dollar short. i was pissed but i wasnt gonna turn around no matter how hard HE begged. however i was fortunate for the begging.

anywho went to Adri’s and we went to the sex party together. it was kool. fun actually. had a lot of laughs. a loooooooot of laughs. i bought 2 items (hahahaha) just in case i never EVER get married. which is what its looking like…unfortunatly.  they will be here in 2 weeks. one of them is for the opposit sex and maybe just maybe i’ll get to use it if my plans dont continue to be fucked over…great choice of words huh.

before i went to bed HIM and i had a looong converstation to clear things up. things make a lot more sense now and i learned something about myself. only problem is HE left the ball in my court, and i have no idea how to play the game…

im screwed…but unfortunatly, not literally.