spent

im really disappointed (?) right now. it sucks it really sucks. it hasent been like this in a very loooooong time. im not sad per se, just a lil annoyed. i suppose its my own fault. i get excited about things that have yet to happen or werent even going to happen. no no no fuck that i am sad. im just too spent right now. i have a tendacy to jump to conclusions so hopefully tommorow things would have worked themselves out. but for tonight. for right now. im simply disappointed. even a little hurt, and confused. why does it seem like things never go my way. what terrible thing have i done in life to prevent me from getting the things want? im not asking for a million dollars. the only thing i want is something that i am FINALLY ready to give…

headache

night