2/22/06

so nothing exciting is going on this way. i wish i had something profound to write about but alas i dont. work has been extremely slow after valentines day. im hoping it will pick up soon. but J.P is back at work yea. we have this new text message relationship. he sends me random text messages and lets me know when Duke is playing or a show i like is coming on. he is kool. but he seems so shy around me at work. i think he might like me a lil, which is a good thign cause i like him, but its a bad thing cause i would never date him.

i had some GREAT phone sex with HIM lastnight. hahahaha, i never thought i’d be the type to be into it. definatly wouldnt do it with anyone else, but yeah so i like it. and i like it cause while we are apart i feel this other connection to him that is beautiful BECAUSE it is disconnected from sex cause we arent there. together. touching and so forth. so i feel as though its not just a physical thing with HIM. i feel closer to HIM when we do engage in it. the language is poetic. HE is attentive even when HE is not there. if i could describe it it would be like a poem: smooth with an even flow. puncuation where its needed with a normal structure but is always unpredictable. that was the highlight of my Tuesday.

today i got off of wok early and went to play with Jordyn. man she is getting so big. how babies grow up so fast is crazy. as soon as i walked in the door she heard my voice, looked for me and started smiling. she knows how to reach for me now, and she cried so i could pick her up. i mean ive been in love before. still am in love. but it isnt possible to love anyone more than i love that lil baby…well until i have my own childen. she had just woken up and was without a bath. i was smelling her feet and they stunk so bad…i mean really. hahahaha. so i told her Miss J ur feet stink, and she just laughed, so i put her foot to her nose, she got a good whiff and she cried. hahahaha that shit was too funny. hahahaha why would i do that??? why would i make her smell her own feet? haha i kill myself.

now im super duper bored. waiting for project runway to come on. *sigh* i just got a empty feeling in my heart. i miss ALL my friends. b4 they stabbed me in the back. or invested all their time in new boyfriends. or let a man ruin their life, or moved away. i wanna go back to the early days of the w.e.b when everyone was kool and we had so much fun.

anyway we finally move next Wed. this weekend looks like it s gonna be fun. thats all. blah