random thoughts

 
I really need to find a new place soon, i came home from work to see my mail opened- needless to say i was livid.
putting my focus back into finding a place ASAP
 
I got paid last weeked, i was planning to put some money aside to save for a new car..funny how things dont turn out as planned, soon as i got paid i have my mother with her handout wanting money for the dog.

My dad asking me for money so he can go to austin for the 4th.
plus i owe my sister $50
 
Then i had a libary fine i had to pay off
 
AND a $25 overdrawn fee with my checking account.
so there goes most of my check.. gotta love it.. smh

I’ve been stressed out to the Max about financial matters lately, kindof bringing me down a bit.

I got out of work an hour ago, came home, made something to eat, sat at the comp for awhile when i got a knock at the door. its some strange guy saying his girlfriends at the hospital and he needs gas money to see her.

I dont know if im just totally jaded from being scammed before. but i had no sympathy whatsoever, even if his story was true.

Told him i was broke and he left..pretty sure it was a scam anyway.. Pretty bold of him to go door to door for ‘gas money’ though.
 
I was debating with my friend Kurt about stereotypes and interracial dating last night on the phone. one thing ive noticed about living in the states compared to when i was living in Europe is that it is alot more acceptable to date interracially overseas.
 
Here its more of a passive agressive behavior that i see from people when Drago and I would go out somewhere. its mostly older people who make a comment, give you a dirty look. but we also would get that from black men as well, which i find laughable, being that its more common in the states to see Black Men with White Women.
 
So why do they care about lil ole us? hmm
 
I heard D’angelo is coming out with an album later this year.. its about damn time. aside from his cocaine use and his legal troubles i really didnt think he’d make a comeback.. its good to hear though, was listening to one of his albums earlier.
 
another person i’ve been listening to lately is 2pac, i used to have all of his albums as a kid, had his posters, shirts you name it. its still surreal sometimes that he’s gone. doesnt help when he comes out with an album every year either.
 
sometimes i wonder if hes just living on some island somewhere..
 
I dont have anything planned for the 4th, might go to my sisters- aside from that nothing exciting going on.
 
Still havent heard a word from Drago, cant say that im not surprised though..
I havent thought of him too much recently, guess thats a good thing.
 
coming to terms with being Bisexual. The end..