Worse than an episode of ‘Neighbours’ -_-

Stress.

Stressity stress stress.

Stress for me, stress for dad, stress for nicole, stress in a dress. -_-

Today was one of those days. Ben, dear Ben, got drunk. Dad gave him the money to buy drink so he wouldn’t throw a tantrum and break something again. What did he do? He fell over and knocked dads speakers, cd’s and dvds everywhere. He also managed to break the back of dads chair. When dad came home from shopping, I could hear the yelling all the way from my room in the back of the house. Its the first time I’ve ever heard dad close to tears. I suposse its been accumilating. Not one week seems to go by without Ben throwing a tantrum or an ‘episode’ and breaking something or screaming or accusing us of doing stuff we didn’t do. He has medication but either he’s not taking it or it’s not working anymore. I don’t know whats the right action to take; I can’t talk to my brother; he doesn’t believe anything I say. I just wish it would stop. I wish it would all stop.

Ben says he’s going away for a week to South Australia to work. I pray that he goes, not just for my sake or Dad’s but for his own sake. He’s 28 ffs. *sigh*

I also got a call from Nicole tonight. Her mum has had an argument with her dad, thrown her wine glass at him and driven off somewhere. Nicoles worried because she’s drunk and she turned off her mobile so they couldn’t call her. I’m worried too; Brenda is more of a friend than my best friends mother. I feel guilty that I havn’t seen her lately but then again, I havn’t seen anyone asides from dad and ben really.

Will 2006 be as bad as 2005 for us all? I think of all the crap that’s happened over a year, not just for me, or nicole, but even on a large scale things have been shitty as (e.g. New Orleans, second Bali bombings).

It’s all one bad soap opera gone to hell.

~ToNi~

Krihanstigsna

December 4, 2005

Yes, it has been an interesting year! I think its all to do with the climate changing 🙂 Hope your friends mum is ok, i’ve had episodes like that with my family before too.

I_got_crabs_again

I just realized I went through the whole yr of 2005 with u. haha Aww babe *hugs* I honestly think it’ll be better. 🙂 New opportunites for jobs and boys (oh god no!!) and exercising and moving out on ur own. It’ll be good. And if u start to lack on anything, I’ll simply fly over there on my jet and whip ur booty into shape. Also, have u considered getting a shocking collar for Ben? 😛 xoxo

chilliconcarnie

*huggles*

waywithwords

Thank you for visiting my diary my friend call anytime. HUGS and HUGSxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

The last quarter of my 2005 has not been a good one. Up until then it was getting better and better. I blame global warming too.

Medisinn

Wow, that sucks, both family situations, my folks are getting divorced and my mom always rants about there being something in the air causing all these families to be chaotic, in a crazy unsensical sense I could almost believe it’s true. I don’t think 2006 will be great, but it’ll certainly be better than 2K5, and it’ll be one year closer to Bush being out of office and the world being safe. Yes!

Sweet, neogotiatingly-challenged shinobi minions, those are even better than ninja warriors! I have no idea when Mario Kart comes out there but it’s out here, WiFi is pretty cool, and McDonalds has leather chairs now, makes for a relaxing gaming atmosphere. Pilot Candidate Ep. 6-8, .hack//SIGN Ep. 1-5 and Licensed By Royalty Ep. 1-4. The only one I’ve seen or even heard of is .hack.

.summer

No, next year will be better for all of us. Next year things will change for the better. I can it feel it. Every year things just get crappier and crappier and I refuse to believe that this world is on a downward curve. It has to change. Next year is our year and we will smile and laugh. Please. *hugs*

Relieved.

WEEEELLL…tell me you at LEAST get the wonderful deliciousness of the frosted flakes in themselves!!!! SAY ITS SO, TONI….SAY ITS SO..

Soliloquy.

Sounds a lot like my brother… ‘Cept he’s only 17 and he chucks a spaz to get money for pot, not booze. Yay 🙁 Hopefully ’06 will be a better year for you (and for evryone really). *hugs*

Thetis moon

*hugs* quite a year indeed. i really hope things are better in ’06 ryn: thanks for your sentinments! Vincent=pretty ^.^ ooh. i might have to check bleach out then. they were watching it in anime club at my old school but i never go around to gong ^^;;

evilmatt

December 5, 2005

Breaking stuff is never good but after reading the story, I am confused whether Ben did this on purpose through a tantrum or through drinking? Either way, sounds like Ben needs to go back and see the doctor for his own good to get his meds right. Good luck with that. I am hoping for a good 2006. Who isn’t? 🙂