Family, what a joke!

   I am very hurt this morning, I just got a message from my older sister, i had sent her  a message about the little get together we have on the aniversary of my brother’s death, I did’nt know how much it inconvenienced everyone, I wish they would have told me sooner..
   My sister, who said she doesnt mean to piss me off, but, her family is going on vacation and taylor is getting a job and has cheerleading practice and she told me my other sister is busy too, Billy has school and Damon has baseball practice..
   First of all, June 12 is on a sunday, i didnt know they had school on sunday’s, and as for baseball practice, damon has skipped it before..
   Second, i could care a less about my older sister and her family, i know that sounds cruel, but, she did it to herself, we never got along as kids’ and as adults’ we still don’t get along, i can’t stand her husband (no one in my family does), as for her children, they have no idea who i am, they were never around me, Tina never made it a point to bring them around, she did’nt care, both her her husband and her children think they are above everyone, the rest of us are like scum to them..
   I said it before and i’ll say it again, my older sister should be glad she has us, she was adopted, and if it werent for my mom and dad who knows where she would have ended up, she had a good life, although she doesnt see it that way, she complained to my niece that she had to grow up to fast, and when my younger sister asked me about it, i quickly corrected that!! i was furious, she had it as rough as we did.LOL yes, my dad died when i was 15, and there are 3 younger than me, so, if any of us had to grow up to fast it was the younger kids’, tina is like 45, she was an adult when he died, and she is the one who had the chance to go to college for free and chose to marry her idiot husband instead! she made choices that she has no one to blame but herself! she just makes me so angry!!!!
   Anyway, i sent my younger sister a message, i told her that Tina let me know that everyone was to busy to have the "get together", so, "lets just forget about it", ive been crying all morning, it upsets me that i cant have a normal family like everyone else, i dont ask anything of any of them, only this and its once a year..
   It really makes me wonder what happens after i die, will i be forgotten too? will it just be another day?? I hope  when i die someone stops and remebers me, takes some time out of thier busy schedule…
   On a different note, my baby lucky mew died the day before yesterday, i was so upset, i couldnt believe it, i thought he really had a chance, he was playing and everything, but, he wasnt gaining weight, he even started eating moist food on his own..:(
   I did have worming medicine for him, but, the bottle said if they are sick not to give it to him, so, i chose not to, because i felt he wasnt strong enough for him and i didnt want to make him sicker than what he was, now, im thinking maybe i should have given it  to him..
   There are 3 baby kittens’ left, i think i will give them some of the medicine, they are healthy, fat little buggers..:)
    Maybe Michael is right, i am to sensitive, ive been like that my whole life, my feelings always have gotten hurt easily, if you look at me the wrong way i cry.LOL I dont think being to sensitive is a bad thing, i do see things differently sometimes, is that so bad??
   well, i feel a little better writting about this *sigh*, it still hurts though…
   I always have Michael’s family, he has a HUGE one, and they have always treated me like i was one of them, better than my own family, in fact, and i love them like they were my own family..:)
 

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