Bringing Jim Home…
I talked to Jim the other day, he kept saying "I want to come home", *sigh* he said that place is driving him nuts, so, I told him, if he wanted to come home, then we will get him home, the poor kid almost started crying…
We talked about Mikey for a bit, Michael doesnt think it was the right thing to do, but, you cant avoid it forever, he needs to talk about him, he needs to deal with Mikey’s death…
Anyway, he said he will need outpatient care, and i promised to find a place, i’m assuming that he will stay with Holly, theres hardly any room here for Michael and I, and Tina, well, she acts like Jim bothers her, i talked to her the other day and she said "why is this happening to me, this is opening wounds", yep, thats my older sister, always thinking of herself, no one else is in pain according to her..
Yes, she was the one driving Mikey to the hospital and had to pull over to the side of the road and yes he died in her arms, but, he was our brother to and our pain is real; I appreciate so much what she did that day, but, I dont want to be reminded of it every time i talk to her, she acts like she deserves some kind of medal!!! I wouldnt want to have traded places with her that day, no way! I wouldnt wish that on my worst enemy, but, that doesnt make her pain any more..
Anyway, we have to get Jim home somehow, i dont kno if they will just let him go right now, because he is in the phsychiatric ward, plus, i cant drive in Pittsburg, Michael said "they will mow you over!!!" and Holly doesnt have her D.L, so, i dont want her to drive us down, if she gets into an accident,we are up the creek without a paddle!!
I promised Jim, so we will get him home somehow, I know Tina is not going to be happy when she finds out, but, i dont care, Holly said when we do go down its just going to be us, Tina has never been there for Jim either, and i told Jim if he ever wants to talk about Mike that he should talk to Holly or me, since we were around him more and knew him better, Tina was only around when she wanted something, which i think is making her feel guilty, thats why shes doing the things shes doing…
Anyway, we will see……….
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