Brain-less

Lesson:  You’re a slave to money and then you die.

 
I’m pretty fed up right now and am in a funk-like mood, I don’t know how I am going to write this without complaining.  I don’t know how to get out of this funk. 
 
Ok.
 
The snow certainly put a damper on my weekend.  Saturday I was supposed to meet my dear friend Molly for dinner at our favorite Mexician resturant and then we were planning the rest of the night at my house for wine and movies.  I was really looking forward to it.  A very low key, relaxing evening.  She always is good company with nice conversation.  But snow and ice are not meant to be played with so we decided to cancel.  Disappointing but necessary, I know.  We’ll arrange it again for another night hopefully soon. 
 
Mark was gone for the weekend and I was happy as ever to have him back at home yesterday.  I didn’t sleep well this entire weekend without him here.  After watching the Sunday 1 o’clock games (Redskins lost in overtime, booo), we cuddled on the couch to watch a Christmas movie.  It was nice.  We’re in the middle of a xmas movie marathon on our Netflix.  Obviously we’re not the only ones so there’s a bit of a wait.  It’s ok though because I prepared for this and have been recording a bunch on DVR.  Genious.
 
The New Year will be here before we know it.  2009 was a terrible, terrible year for me and I’m ready to leave it behind.  Rather than list my misfortuine, I will just leave it at that.  2009 was terrible.  I am hoping for many new and wonderful things in 2010.  I am curious to know what the coming year will bring me in return.  I am going into it with a positive attitude and can only hope and pray that the cards actually fall in my favor. 
 
I’m barely making it today, and what’s even worse is that it’s only noon and it’s only Monday.  Not a good combination.  I’m just so over it.  Work is dull as ever.  I am swamped in tedious, dummy-work.  I am so focused on the future and getting out of here that it’s hard for me to focus on the task-at-hand today.  This is a normal attitude for me to have and I don’t quite know how to snap out of it.  Sometimes I just sit here and beat myself up and think of how my life is wasting away right before my eyes and there’s nothing I can do about it.  I try.  I’ve been trying to life myself up, but how do you just find your dream job and live happily ever after?  I surely don’t know.